I just read something... And I think even with a heavy heart these days (but I mask my feelings because I have to).. I have to remember life is about the long term goals not just the short term highs. I read this below...

Always remember and bear in mind that life is a series of choices, and most choices are based on two things: love or fear. Both can masquerade in different ways along your path, but love what you do and do what you love. Make the choices in your life that will make your soul sing, and sustain a happy life during your earthly mission. Just think: The choice you make today could make not only your life happier, but make a better world in which we live.